The Struggles of an Inconsistent Creative

I have always prided myself in my ability to write about anything and everything. The problem I continue to run into are the periods when, out of nowhere, I stop writing altogether. I still think of ideas. I just lack the desire to put them onto the page or do anything with them for that matter. I don’t know why I find myself in these positions. In writing this piece, you are experiencing my escape from one of those periods into one where I hopefully create content on a regular basis. I’m not holding my breath.

My inability to create content on a regular basis isn’t a matter of a lack of skill or laziness. I suffer from depression and anxiety. I have dealt with both of these demons my entire life and I use the creation of content as a means to escape them or process what’s going on inside my head. From time to time, one or the other or both become so strong that they cause me to get lost in my head. Once I am lost in my head, I am lost in every other sense of the word. I have the information rattling around with no way to get it out.

A lot of people who write pieces like this where there’s really no point and it’s more or less the writer’s elaborate meditation on their current mental state usually leave them in a dustbin somewhere and move on to something that people might want to actually read. I don’t do that because I want the entirety of the work that I created to be available for whoever wants to look at it. This makes me accountable for the words that I put on the page and ensures that every word is going to…